About 2014

I can’t believe we are in October right now!
This was a really fast year, full of new people, new relationships, and conquering myself a little more.
About the good things, I can say I went to some concerts and enjoyed a very good time meeting bands, people, drinking some beer and buying metal stuff, once I worked in a new job (then, I learned how to do it, and it’s  good to me), I bought a bicycle recently, too, and it makes me happy because my old bicycle is running awful and I really like to ride speedy sometimes and feel the speed on  my face, the adrenaline in my veins. This is why I’m thinking about going to “la quebrada” (a place near to my house when you can do downhill).  I met some important people to me, I forgot some unnecessary people too. I can say I grew up very much this year. I left some bad things of my life too, not totally all of them, but I left.

I’m now fighting against the most difficult semester of the career. It’s too hard, but I want to pass the year with a good qualification (over 5.5).  I need to work very hard this last month!! I believe in myself, and I don’t want academic frustration in my life, also, I want to learn more and more about psychology, because this is why I’m at university.

About the things which didn’t go so well, I must say some relationships with some people didn’t go as I wanted, buy I don’t care anymore, always people come and go. I prefer to forget, sometimes there’s nothing to do with.

Also, I didn’t read the books I wanted to read in summer, and it’s horrible to me! I will read that when this semester ends.

What would I do if I won the lottery

If I won the lottery, I think I would buy, in first place, a comfortable home to my mom and sister, and then, a comfortable home to me, too. In a good neighborhood I think.

Then, I would have a really crazy party with my friends, very-crazy hahahaha, with llamas and midget launching xDD. Also, I would buy a lot of metal vinilos, tapes, cds and stuff.
Also, I would buy a house in the south of Chile and a boat to fishing in the summer, or when I wanted to.

I would live a really simple life, just spending the necessary money to have a life without needings. I would, also, buy a lot of occultist books, I love them! Ahahaha.

But, really, I’m not very interested in have a lot of money, if I have it I would travel arround the world or something like that, but it’s not something that I wouldn’t do if I really want to. Even, I would do all the things I said without winning the lottery I think (yes, including the midget lauching hahaahahaha!! ), it’s just about effort and strenght!, the difference is that: If I don't win the lottery, I must to work. Well, maybe I will not to travel arround the world, but I least I would travel arround Chile, and it's very exciting to me!

Also, I don’t have very expensive dreams I think. I don’t want to nobody serving me or a house which is too hard to clean, with ridiculous expensive cars and things like that, I’m a man without avarice in my life. 

How I Chose my career

This week i’m going to tell you about how I chose my career.

In first place, when I was a child I used to see psychologists like “cool persons” and I wanted to be one. It was at 10 or 11 years old. I love the clinical cases, how the human condition is deformed by a disease or sickness is fascinating to me, then when I was a child I studied something about psychopathology or similar things (but in internet, without someone to tell you which pages are good to learn, it’s some hard, also I’m the first person who comes to university, then, it was some difficult to me).

But, when I was ad portas to choose my career, I remembered when I was a child I liked very much the arqueology, then I though to study that for a while, but I chose psychology, finally, because it’s more fascinating to me, also, because antropology (first step to be an arqueologist) isn’t so interesting to me as psychology.

The last time when I decided my future was in 2013’s new year party, in a reflexive moment with my Friends, some drunk, I must to say hahaha, but the chose was decided some time ago from that moment, really.

My Future Job

My future job

Since I was a child, I wanted to be a psychologist.  I didn’t know the psychology had different types (like social, occupational or educational) when I was a child, but the clinical psychology was a very interesting thing to me. Therefore I studied a lot to get good qualifications and be better and better in school, to come to university and learn about it, and, then, work as a psychologist.

Today, I know more about psychology, but I haven't changed my decision about clinical psychology, because it’s something that fills me up, is the only thing I can say “it’ my vocation”. Give help to someone that has problems with their life by the better way I know, learn about mental diseases, study about the history of mental disease classifications and raise from the bottom to someone who needs it is really a thing I would love to do the rest of my life.

Then, if you ask me for my future job, it will be work as a clinical psychologist.  I really don’t know if it will be in a private consult or in a mental clinic (or hospital), I want to decide it later, because I feel I don’t really know enough about. Even I would work in a private consult and in a hospital at the same time, I don’t know.

Even I would work with behavioral therapies or psychoanalysis, I think it depends about the patient. I want to study it carefully.

I don’t really want to travel to another country to work as psychologist, because en Chile we have horrible statistics about mental health. Stress is devouring our population, and I want to help as much as I can. 

My favourite piece of art

My favourite piece of art is this illustration of the devil, which appears in "Codex Gigas", folio 290 recto.  Legend has it the codex gigas was created by a monk who sold his soul to the devil. The book has a lot of different contents, about religious topics, medicine and magic. The legend says it was created in only a night, written by hand by Herman the Recluse in the Benedictine monastery.
The illustration is really simple, but it makes me feel something strange, like the devil's eyes looks trought me, like I would feel the perversion of the demon in his smilling face, like he is saying "I'm here human kind, I'm real and I wrote by the hand of this mortal man this book. I won't hide myself anymore".  Maybe it's just suggestion by the story told about the book, but I really got fascinated at the first time I saw the picture of that piece of art. 

This illustration is special to me because I saw this illustration in other books about black magic, therefore I can suppose it's really implicated on the occultism , and it's really interesting to me, sometimes I read a lot about that topics and I really enjoy that!. 

Mortuary Drape, Concert

All was just an impulse. I was here, at the university, listening to them on youtube (knowing they came that day to Chile, but didn't care much about it) in a moment, I thought "what if I go?"
Then I talked with a friend, Francisca, who said to me she hadn't money to go, but she really wanted to do it, then I said "anyway I want to go with you, we are gonna get some way to get in".
Then we met at metro "Plaza de Maipú" and went, then, to "rock y guitarras", a bar near to Juan Gomez Millas, at Macul, going to Irarrázabal.




At the gates of Rock y Guitarras bar, she realized she met the producer of the concert, then we got into it half price. It was amazing.

Mortuary is awesome. The bass line at their first EP or albums makes a really dark atmosphere. And the parts with synth are so simple but they give to Mortuary Drape an old flavor or something like that. At the concert they played only songs from their first EP and Album, then I could feel the atmosphere in the concert, it was awesome!

Well, at the concert I met some nice people, we headbanged together, shared some beers and stuff.
It was a great night. They gave a nice show, the music's equalization was so great, I enjoyed it very much.

It was one of the best impulsive decisions of my entire life (They aren't few, I must say hahaha).

SIGH and japanese extreme metal bands

I like extreme music. Sometimes it’s black metal, or death metal, or speed metal. Japan, I said it in my last post, it’s a really interesting country. Japanese music is very rich in quality and creativity, even the pop music (even if I hate to admit it) is very complex in those terms.

Therefore, if I consider Japanese pop music interesting, you can imagine how much I like the Japanese metal. It’s sometimes so weird, or sometime very folkloric, but it’s never a boring country to do their music.

I listened to a lot of Japanese bands and I can say they take a lot of influences of occidental bands and make it better, or at least, rarer. Mixing and re-doing things, exploring new concepts, without fears. I like Sigh because of that: They are experimenting all the time with new sounds, new instruments, new concepts, new influences. They are considered “avant-garde black metal”, but they have just the voices of that kind of music or the influences about black metal topics, therefore I don’t really think they’re some like “black metal” (they are not pure, but it isn’t mean they are not the best band I met, from Japan at least).

I can say my favorite band is Sigh, but it doesn’t mean I don’t like “pure” or “true” metal bands of Japan, like Metalucifer, Saver Tiger, Sabbat or any metal band I met of that country, even the “new metal” or j-rock bands like Eight, Mucc or Plasma Jet.